Differences...

So for the last little while I haven't really been feeling good. Usually I feel pretty calm, relaxed and easy going, but now it seems as though I've developed anxiety and it's so hard for me to be myself.

It seems like maybe I have become a different person, but I don't know how I really managed to do that. I think the reason why I feel this way is because a lot of things have changed this year. I feel like I'm now very different from everyone because I don't fit in. What the hell happened? I honestly feel like I don't belong anywhere now. I feel as though no one wants me around and no body really cares what I'm up to. Well, that's fine. I mean... if no one wants me around, what am I supposed to do? Invite myself?

I feel so different from everyone these past 2 weeks. I feel like I don't fit in socially at school and I don't fit in socially in my hometown. I feel like I'm the one who's trying too hard to be "cool" and at the same time, it's not working. Obviously if I were more cool, people would want to hang around me and call me and just hang out with me. But this isn't the case. I guess I'm just not cool anymore. Instead, I've turned into a quiet, introverted person who seemingly does not prefer the company of extroverted people.

What's wrong with me? Why do I feel so different from everyone? Recently, I feel like there is no one I can relate to and no one I can talk to. Being different actually really sucks ass especially if you weren't different before. I honestly think I've lost my sociability. How the hell did that happen?