Weddings...

It's my cousin's wedding this Saturday and I am sort of dreading it. I've only ever helped do wedding business once before but I feel like I never want to get mixed up in it ever again. For this wedding, I am supposed to Emcee the even along with the bride's brother. I agreed to do this because in a way, I am weak and have trouble saying "no" to people.

This got me thinking and talking to my boyfriend. We spoke about how events would unravel if we were to get married. Surprisingly, I discovered that in this point of time in life, my boyfriend and I honestly don't even care how our wedding would play out. The more we talked about it, the more it felt like this was just a huge party to impress others. Though it is a celebration of the union of two people, it just seemed like it would be too much trouble to have everything go "your way" for the day. This might be due to the fact that both of us are used to the traditional cultural wedding and we're both okay with it (the weddings are usually BARELY any planning) or we've just both come to realize that we'd be much less stressed and less frustrated if we just rolled with the punches.

I talked to a good friend about this and she was sort of shocked. I told her exactly how I felt about weddings and she asked me "Wouldn't you be excited at all? What about the dress?". Yes, I think I would have fun picking out the dresses and also, it's not like I wouldn't get all dolled up for my own wedding. But I definitely wouldn't enforce a seating plan or have a really formal wedding that was organized so much that it would almost be like a theatre performance.

As of right now, this is exactly how I feel about my own future wedding but hey, things might change when the time finally comes.